You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.
Deuteronomy 6:5-9
Lena's (first) mission trip to Haiti turned into our Adoption Adventure!
When we we're adopting Nicolas.....Blogs weren't around.....or FB....etc....the one thing that kept me going was....God first, and communicating with others that we're going through the exact same thing. I found comfort in knowing others knew how I was feeling.
That all consuming feeling that only one that is going through, or has gone through understands. I remember that raw emotion, so much that I don't think I would have it in me to do it again. I'm sad to admit that, but I struggled so much emotionally. My family remembers. I couldn't sleep at night....All I could think about was my baby ....growing up.....so far away. I would see a little boy I thought was about the same age....i could only stare and wonder if my boy was the same size, what he was eating...if he was finally walking...what was his first words....was his voice low? how big we're his feet? Then it got to a point when I would see a little boy around his age..... and tears would well up in my eyes.....yes, i think i was a little mental.... :)
sorry for rambling....i guess what i'm trying to say is i'm here for you.....and can't wait until your boys are home!
Thanks, Missy. I can't wait til they are home either.
I know you understand-it's such a long drawn out process. I have to trust God. And let Him work on me during this process. Some days, I do better than others. Even when I feel overwhelmingly sad because the boys are so far away, I still have peace. It's an odd contradiction that I am getting used to.
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When we we're adopting Nicolas.....Blogs weren't around.....or FB....etc....the one thing that kept me going was....God first, and communicating with others that we're going through the exact same thing. I found comfort in knowing others knew how I was feeling.
ReplyDeleteThat all consuming feeling that only one that is going through, or has gone through understands. I remember that raw emotion, so much that I don't think I would have it in me to do it again. I'm sad to admit that, but I struggled so much emotionally. My family remembers. I couldn't sleep at night....All I could think about was my baby ....growing up.....so far away. I would see a little boy I thought was about the same age....i could only stare and wonder if my boy was the same size, what he was eating...if he was finally walking...what was his first words....was his voice low? how big we're his feet? Then it got to a point when I would see a little boy around his age..... and tears would well up in my eyes.....yes, i think i was a little mental.... :)
sorry for rambling....i guess what i'm trying to say is i'm here for you.....and can't wait until your boys are home!
Love ya!
Thanks, Missy. I can't wait til they are home either.
ReplyDeleteI know you understand-it's such a long drawn out process. I have to trust God. And let Him work on me during this process. Some days, I do better than others. Even when I feel overwhelmingly sad because the boys are so far away, I still have peace. It's an odd contradiction that I am getting used to.
:-)